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emma-luee

7 Reasons To Lose Weight For The Holidays

1) Oversized sweaters!!! They’ll look so cute on you when you lose all that fat

2) Leggings/skinny jeans. Imagine how thin and nice your legs will look in pictures with friends and family

3) Dresses. I bet you can’t wait to finally wear that amazing dress for the holidays and not worry if your belly fat is showing

4) All those “have you gained weight?” and “maybe you should lose some weight” comments. You’ll finally not have to worry about them and instead get the “you look great” and “have you lost weight?” comments

5) Bathing suits(if you’re going somewhere warm). No more trying to hide and sucking in when you wear it, you’ll be able to look amazing with that thin body of yours

6) Eating. If you do end eating more then you thought you would eat(no shame in that), no one will tell you to lay off or ask how many plates you’ve had

7) Pictures. You’ll want to be in and take so many more pictures now that you don’t look like a whale. You’ll look great in all the Instagram and Facebook pictures!

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This isn’t targeted to anyone in particular, just kinda thinspo for me and anyone who needs it ♡ ♡

fxttesthxeever

The Messed Up Things I Do

I’m too fat for an eating disorder so I need to be skinny to have one.
I look at bigger people and think, “Disgusting. How can they live like that?” I know, I’m fucked.
I make jokes about it so my friends don’t think I have an ED.
I stare at girl’s legs and compare them to mine. A lot.
I purposely drop stuff on the floor so I can do a low squat thing, pick it up, and examine how fat my thighs are to keep my motivated.
I literally base the value of my life on how skinny I am. I’m fat right now, so I’m not even worth a nibble of a penny.
I love telling myself that I don’t deserve something I badly want if I’m not skinny.
MY SEARCH HISTORY IS LITERALLY DO I HAVE ANOREXIA QUIZZES AND THINSPO AND ZODIAC MEMES.

Scale: 122.4

Me: haha, I’m not anorexic, I’m still fat. But hey, I couldn’t even get past 128 last December, so that’s an improvement I guess lol.

Me: • • •

Me: FUCK YOU SCALE.

Anybody else also think they don’t have an ED cuz they don’t drink green tea?
Damn right I eat chips after talking about how high in calories a granola bar is. I’m not proud.
Why is it every time I wanna fast I have a binge day and when I plan to binge I have a good 500/600 cal day.
MY SEARCH HISTORY IS ALSO FILLED WITH “HOW TO FAST SUCCESSFULLY”.

daintyfawnice

idontneedcalories

Stuff I loved when I was skinny/ miss from being skinny

DISCLAIMER: I don’t post this looking to trigger others. If you’re a new ana reach for help, and if you’re already an ana please consider recovery. If you’re recovering I don’t recommend reading this.
Walking around without my legs touching
“you’re so skinny!!”
Feeling confident in any clothing
No one judging me if I ate too much of something or if I ate junk food, sweets, etc
Trying on anything and having it look good on me
Bones sticking out all over
Not feeling self conscious when eating in front of my thin friends
Having a more elegant look
Not worrying if I make last minute beach or pool plans
Literally not being able to get a double chin, it would be painful whenever I tried to
Not worrying about disgusting people whenever I got agitated while working out
My legs looking even longer whenever I wore heels
Borrowing clothes from friends and not worrying I’ll rip them or won’t fit in them
Tiny waist
When guys looked at me at school or at parties I felt it was because they liked the way I looked instead of laughing at how fat I am
Sneaking into my sister’s closet and looking amazing in everything
Receiving compliments from friends
Laying on one side and having a thigh gap and also not having my stomach’s fat pouring all over
Skinny arms that didn’t make me look gigantic
Clearer face
Smiling and looking cute, not ugly
Not having my doctor tell me I need to go on a diet “just in case”
Going shopping was fun, not scary and overwhelming
Feeling confident
Flirting without fearing I’ll come out looking like an idiot

Source: idontneedcalories

livelaughstarve

anatakescontrolhere anatakescontrolhere

ED Problems and Habits

* Can’t stop touching my body/can’t stop pinching my fat

* Sucking in your stomach when you’re around people so they don’t see your fat

* Lying too much bc of food

* Body checking in every mirror that you pass

* Also ignoring your body in the mirror so you don’t cry

* Spending all day looking at thinspo instead of fulfilling your responsibilities

* Distancing yourself from everybody

* Having unrealistic expectations and goals for yourself

makingperfection

I feel attacked

fuckoff-aesthetiics

* Rubbing your collarbones, ribs, hip bones

* Checking for any difference in your thigh gap

* Trying not to gag while drinking green tea

* Exercising whenever you have a moment of privacy

* Watching Netflix/napping to avoid eating

* Running to the bathroom was lax kicks in

* Curled up in bed crying because of hunger pains

restrict-binge-starve-repeat restrict-binge-starve-repeat

* Doing that thing with your hand around your wrist/arm to see if you can touch fingers together yet

* Waiting until everyone falls asleep to do silent workouts in peace w/out getting caught

*Running to the school bathroom to purge when you’re forced to eat during a fast

* Punishing yourself for having the basic human need of the nutrients that come in food

* C O U N T I N G C A L O R I E S

* Bad sleep habits

* Constantly measuring/weighing yourself

*Sucking in your stomach while trying on clothes to see how much better you’d look in them if you were skinny

fuckoff-aesthetiics

* Doing that thing with your hands around your thigh to see how far up you can get your fingers to touch

* Passing out from over-exercising

* Hiding in the school bathroom to keep from being forced to eat

* Over-estimating your calories

* Always thinking about the next time you can measure/weigh yourself

* Being extremely dizzy when you stand up but have to walk it off and act normal so no one suspects anything

* Trying to hide your Tumblr account

* Drinking too much water or not enough

* Always feeling dehydrated for some reason

* Not being able to poop

* Weird stomach noises at the worst times

* Headaches

* Shaking

* Cold. All. The. Time

daintydreamm

* Forcing yourself to take the stairs every time you’re given the opportunity, no matter how little you’ve eaten

* Isolating yourself in your room all day

* Going to the grocery store, looking through every aisle, gazing at all the food only to leave with nothing

* Developing not only a fear but an utter disgust for certain foods (etc. meat or even all animal products)

* Leaving class every hour to pee and fill your water bottle up

* Hate seeing/feeling your stomach touch your thighs when you sit down to pee

* Basing your own worth and others’ based off their weight/size

* Can’t go to the bathroom without lifting up shirt to check stomach and ribs in the mirror

* Chewing gum to simply stay focused

* Sleep schedule run amok because you’re so demotivated to anything but the bare minimum these days due to your malnutrition, plus sleeping is a good loophole to avoid eating

* Having no friends because you don’t want to go out with them for food

* Spending copious amounts of money on food only to binge on it and feel even worse, plus now you’re broke

* Taking a body check every day even though there’s no difference

* Purposely weighing yourself at inopportune times to trigger yourself just bc you’re “curious”

* Knowing the measurements of every part of your body, even your toes

* Losing your personality to your eating disorder

xskinnyxslutx

honestly didn’t even realize that i did 90% of these things because of my ed… huh

miascomeback

I feel exposed

the-unhappy-skeleton

attacked

feather-lightangel

don’t come for mE

Source: starvethearies

this-boy-bulimic

🥀Skinny! Motivation! 🔪

• Having people pick you up randomly

• Fitting into anyone’s clothes when they offer them

• Having that special someone call you little, small, tiny etc.

• “You know the really skinny one over there?”

• Not being able to hold almost anything between your legs or in your lap

• “Do you want me to carry your bag for you? it looks heavy.”

• when you have like two feet of your belt after clipping it.

• No double chin when your looking at your phone in your lap.

• You can literally sit on ANYONE’S lap.

Stay safe lovelies 💗🦇

ra-ana-motivation

I wish people knew who hard it is to have an ed. How many hours u spend crying about calories and ur weight. How many times you’ve tried to eat normally only to regret it later. And when u tell someone about ur ed and they look at u like ur lying because come on no one thinks u actually have an ed ur not skinny or dying. But if u were they’d try to make u eat thinking that eating that one bite of cake, chocolate, cookie or anything would magically make ur ed go away. But that’s not how it works the battle is in the mind. If anything that bite of food would most likely make things worse. I hate not being thin enough for people to care. I hate how the scale never goes down even if I’ve gone days without food. If I’ve burnt all the calories I’ve eaten that day I wouldn’t be satisfied i think to myself I could’ve burnt more if I haven’t eaten. I hate how being cold and light headed feels like an accomplishment while eating and trying to recover feels like I’m destroying my body. I hate how many hours a day I spend worrying about calories and food when I could be doing something better or go live my life that I want to. Being anorexic isn’t fun or cute if anything it’s horrible. It’s thinning hair, dry peeling skin, tired eyes, and a broken soul. If ur someone who comments on people’s weights or promotes ed pls stop. This isn’t beautiful it’s destruction

cxffeeandtxaforyxu

i want to recover and eat like a normal human,

but i want that euphoric, empty feeling of when you’re fasting.

i want to feel as if i am floating in the air, my head in the clouds.

i want my legs to be stick thin, to see worry in people’s eyes.

i want to be cold every single day, despite the weather.

i want my ribs to be on display, like little piano keys jutting out.

i want collarbones and shoulder blades and hip bones oh so sharp.

i want skinny, and i will push myself to my limits every single day to get there. i will not go down without a fight.

sticklyfae

alice-exe alice-exe

i hate seeing pro-ana/mia scumbags tell impressionable children that “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”, because that lie (and a few others) really helped bring to life an eating disorder i still haven’t recovered from a decade later.

do you want to know how ‘skinny’ really feels?

‘skinny’ feels like going from captain of a sports team to someone who nearly faints so much that they become the only student in the school to be removed from PE class.

‘skinny’ feels like bombing all of your exams because you’re too hungry to think, and never actually managing to finish school.

‘skinny’ feels like dead eyes, dull hair, yellowed teeth and premature ageing. it feels like aching joints, a million bruises, and no resistance to heat or cold.

‘skinny’ feels like being too preoccupied with your body to enjoy your youth or even allow yourself to be photographed with the few remaining friends who can tolerate your spaciness and food freakouts.

‘skinny’ feels like endlessly waiting for the day when you’re finally light enough to be worthy of love, and weighing your current hunger against this vague point in the future that never comes, because even if you reach the weight you thought you needed to be it still won’t be enough.

‘skinny’ feels like being told you’re too bony to hug.

‘skinny’ feels like watching everyone else live happy, healthy lives while you can’t even do laundry without getting lightheaded, and wondering if you can undo any of the damage you caused by malnourishing yourself for years.

i thought that starving myself would somehow fix my life, but all it did was make things worse. i’m 25 years old and i haven’t really accomplished anything since i was 15. people my age are doing things like graduating from university, getting married, having children, and getting cool jobs, and i’m just trying to convince myself that it’s okay to eat more than 1000 calories a day.

don’t listen to the pro-anas. weighing less isn’t worth risking your future. please eat.

Source: catwithaknife

ialwayscomebacktothis

My biggest trigger is seeing beautiful big girls online with an hourglass figure talking about body positivity because I know I will never look like that if I go back to being bigger. I won’t be beautiful big. I have a large stomach with no ass and thin legs in comparison. It’s not fucking fair. My ugly body type with never be seen as beautiful. The only way my body type can be considered even remotely acceptable is if i become thin to the point where it is no longer noticeable and I seem proportionate. Fuck thicc girl positively because it’s bullshit and only favors big thin girls. My eating disorder didn’t start because of beautiful thin girls it started with this fake ass body positivity for big girls with thin waists.

notyetaskinnygirl

⛄positive holidays (food) tips⛄

notyetaskinnygirl

⛄ Offer to assist in the cooking. You will be helping people, which is always a nice feeling, and you also get a small say. For years I suggested veggies and hummus as a finger food dish before going to sit down at the table. Now it is a staple and I eat that when everyone is munching on chips.

⛄ Offer to bring a dish! In our family it is common that everyone who comes to the party brings a dish. Now I live on my own, I can bring a low-cal dish or version. And eat that of course.

⛄ If there are dogs, take up dog-walking duty! The fur babies will be super happy, you get to step outside for 15 minutes or so (helpful when you are feeling panicky), and you burn a few extra calories.

⛄ Compliment other people and don’t talk down on yourself when someone compliments you. I find it difficult to accept compliments, but during the holidays I make an extra effort to just say “thank you” and steer the conversation someplace else. People feel good when they can compliment someone else!

⛄ If there is any way to do so: serve yourself. Make a smaller plate, but taste everything. Your mom, aunt, brother,… worked really hard on that food, and tasting everything is just polite.

⛄ When you are given a plate and have no choice in serving size, focus on the veggies. Take a bite of everything else, but eat all (or most of) the veggies. Once you finish those, you will feel full.

⛄ Eat slowly! It takes about 15 minutes for food to arrive in our stomachs, so if you eat quickly, you eat more. Participate in conversation, compliment the chef, offer to go get some more water from the kitchen… Give your body time to say when it’s full.

⛄ Final, life changing tip: up your calorie intake to 1.500 for that day. I KNOW it is a lot, but do it! By deciding in advance that you are allowed to eat more, you feel less guilty, less inclined to panic at the table, and you are more pleasant company. (it can help break plateaus as well!)

⛄⛄ Kindness matters, and the holidays might be super difficult for us, but there is no reason to be rude! A lot of people feel a huge amount of pressure to be perfect during this time, and offering smiles and having a taste of all dishes will make the chef feel really good. We can keep losing weight and still be kind! ⛄⛄